Well this is my first blog and I am writing small becuase I do not want my family to read what I am writing. I chose to start blogging becuase I feel I need to have a way to express my feelings and I know it will be good for me.
Well lets start off with friday. It was a sort of pleasent day, I can't really complain. But, I know my best friend and I have been drifting. And I know that she knows that we have as well. The reasons are a little unclear right now but, I think I have a good idea why. Well I did tell her I would walk with her afterschool, becuase we do walk in the same direction to get home. Well, during lunch time I always go with my other best friend and she invited me to go to her house afterschool. Well I agreed becuase I did get close again with my friend and I always knew going to her house is always fun. Well afterschool I had to tell my friend that I could't walk with her afterschoolbecause I was going to my friends house, and I could tell she was disapointed right when I told her. Instantly I regreted telling her that. And I knew she was a little mad at me as well and wanted to get away, and I wanted to make things up to her so I told her we should hang out during our weekend and do something fun. Well when I got to my friend's house we watched movies and it was nice. Because, I got to have some alone time with my friend that we hardly ever get. We bonded nicley that day, and it felt good. We sat next to eachother and even leaned on eachother while we sang along to The Rocky Horror Picture Show. It was really nice and I do wish that I could go back in time just to have that moment back. I know I can always be myself when I'm with her. We have so many things in common, I don't have to worry about telling her anything becuase I know she will understand. Well during the weekend I never really got a chance to call my other friend to make plans for the weekend. All I did at home was just work on homework and read. But, I did go to the movies with my mom and my sister. That was nice becuase I do like to spend time with my mom as well. But, when we go to the store, which was like every other day, I do love to go the keyboards and just experiment with them. I've always wanted to learn the piano and I still want to learn. When I get a job in the summer I do intend to save my money and buy a keyboard.
Well when we got back to school today, things went quite well before nutriton. We had a test in english test and I didn't even complain about that either. I actually concentrated on it and didn't let anything distract me. Not even my "complain about everything neighbors" that sit in front of me. I read each article carefully and even went back to answer the questions. Well when nutrition came along and I went to go hang out with my best friend she wasn't there yet. And my other friends that hang out with my best friend were already warning me about how she was already acting weird and how about they overheard she was acting that way because of a boy. Well I soon figured out that boy was me when she came. She wasn't acting at all like normal. So I decided to just leave and go with my other friends.
As I was walking over to where my other friends were I remebered what my friend said about my best friend. "If she is angry she shouldn't take it out on everybody and just say why she is acting like that." That made perfect sense to me. She shouldn't act like that. Its not good to bottle everything up. Well, I left and then later on during lunch time I went to my club meeting. Which is Gay & straight alliance. I love that club becuase I'm around my own kind; the people that can relate to me.
Well I have boy problems too. I do feel lonely, I haven't had any boy attention in a long time. I need it. I need to have someone like me the way I like them. Well I do like someone. Let's just call him G. Well I have been thinking about G all weekend and I know he's bisexual. So i guess that means I kinda have a chance with him. It's a lot better than having a crush on a straight guy. Well he does talk to one of my best friends and I hope she can introduce us one of these days. I hope I can talk to him one of these days. He's really cute.
Well that was nice writing for half an hour. I'll probably write tomorrow again.
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